I asked a simple but urgent question: why a Savior? Not because it’s Christmas week, but because I’ve lived the difference between admiring Jesus from a distance and being rescued by Him. I grew up in church, fluent in the songs and the stories, but my life was hollow—driven by self-preservation, people-pleasing, fear, and the quiet despair of being my own god. Scripture doesn’t flatter us there: all have sinned, the wages are death, and even our best efforts—outside of Christ—are filthy rags. We don’t need a coach for self-improvement; we need a Savior who does what we cannot. Jesus doesn’t point to a path—He is the Way. Grace is a gift, not a grind we perform.
In 2002, I hit the floor in my parents’ basement and repented for real. I stopped playing church. I stopped fighting Him and started fighting with Him. That moment began a new kind of life that I tried to picture today through an unlikely parable: espresso. Beans have potential, but until they’re ground, the good can’t be accessed. Pressure—real pressure—must be applied, but not alone. With the right water—living water—pressure doesn’t crush; it extracts. And what comes through is concentrated goodness, a crema of grace that isn’t just for me but flows through me to others. That’s ministry. Not a title or a mic, but a life that releases what Jesus has placed within.
And when the shot’s pulled, the spent puck has to go. You can’t add Jesus to the old life and get something new. He keeps working this cycle—grinding pride, applying purposeful pressure, washing with living water—until Christ is formed in us. If the highest place we reach is His feet, we’ve done it all. So if you feel the pressure this week, don’t despise it. Ask what He’s extracting. Let Him have full access. Throw the old away. And worship.
Key Takeaways
- 1. We need a Savior, not self-help Self-knowledge and effort can diagnose the sickness but cannot heal it. Scripture levels the field: everyone has sinned, and the paycheck for sin is death—no exceptions, no loopholes. Jesus doesn’t offer a technique; He offers Himself, the only Way back to the Father. Grace is not earned; it is received, and it frees us from boasting and from despair. [68:22]
- 2. Surrender replaces “Jesus-lite” religion It’s possible to be around God’s people and never actually give God access. Real repentance looks like telling the truth about our patterns and finally collapsing into His mercy. I had to stop treating God like my opponent and begin fighting with Him, trusting His corner over my instincts. That shift broke the cycle of pretending and began a life of partnership. [74:13]
- 3. Let God grind down pride Whole beans don’t brew; unbroken hearts don’t transform. The grind isn’t humiliation for humiliation’s sake—it’s access. Jesus Himself embraced the ultimate “grind,” emptying Himself and descending to us; He never asks us to go where He has not gone. When pride yields, every particle of our life becomes reachable for grace. [78:25]
- 4. Pressure with living water transforms Life’s pressure alone just crushes and embitteres; pressure with the Spirit extracts Christlike character. Trials reveal the cracks He intends to fill, and with living water, what emerges isn’t sludge—it’s something surprisingly sweet. The right “water” matters: His presence sustains in a way nothing else can. Let pressure partner with the Spirit’s flow and watch what God pulls through. [88:30]
- 5. Throw out the spent puck You can’t re-use what’s already been extracted and expect crema. Likewise, you cannot bolt Jesus onto the old life and call it new. The Spirit invites a rhythm: break, press, wash, pour—and then discard what can no longer serve. He who began a good work will keep cycling grace until the day of Christ. [99:10]
Youtube Chapters
- [00:00] - Welcome
- [09:41] - Icy roads and opening prayer
- [57:33] - Service flow: making room for Spirit
- [59:24] - Why a Savior? Setting the table
- [61:31] - Life without Christ: empty and self-preserving
- [65:14] - All have sinned: the framework
- [68:22] - Jesus is the only way
- [71:26] - 2002: real repentance and return
- [74:52] - The espresso parable begins
- [76:13] - The grind: pride broken down
- [80:18] - Pressure and purpose in trials
- [88:30] - Living water and true ministry
- [92:32] - Crema: the sweet payoff
- [99:10] - The spent puck: leave the old
- [125:27] - Christmas Eve and community updates