Transformative Journey: Embracing God's Grace and Community

I don't know how many people get permission to just be themselves, show up and just be themselves. But that's what y 'all have provided for me. And this church has, it's a family. And so, let's not call this the house of God. Let's call this the home of God. Because people live in houses, but families live in homes. [00:12:30] (21 seconds)


And she's perfectly at peace right now she's dropping her head she's showing me that she's actually submitting herself to me and it's a really sacred thing when somebody submits himself to you and especially in this thing that we call marriage, it's not very popular language that wives submit yourself to your husbands and I think there's a lot of reason why because men have used that as a reason or an excuse to to mean that that that gives you permission to to dominate somebody her submission to me doesn't give me permission to dominate her her submission to me means that I've got something very very precious that I better better figure out how to steward and how to take care of and how to give her more power and more permission and that she'll find that her with me that she's far more than she could have ever been apart from me and I'm more because of it as well. [00:19:31] (72 seconds)


but he had such a better way he's like if you need to be born again he was telling this man he's like you've done all the things that you know to do and i can see i can see what your heart is and what you really want but you can't do it you're gonna have to be born again and and the guy he was talking to didn't get it he's like how am i going to be born again i'm a man how am i going to go back to being a man i'm not going to be born again i'm not going to go back into my mom's womb and jesus said everybody is born of the flesh that everybody must be born of the spirit and of of water and that there's a different birth that we become sons and daughters of god and he said that he gives us the right to become sons and daughters of god and i want to give her the right to become something that she's never been she's compliant she's figured out some of the rules and right now she's actually she's still got that hanging out of her mouth but [00:25:03] (66 seconds)


And because all of her defense mechanisms, I don't want her to have to live in survival mode anymore. And every one of us, we've built systems to help us make sense of our lives. And there's things we've had to put our guard up. to make ourselves feel safe some of it like physically we've had to do something so that we could be safe but so much of it is mentally and emotionally and so as we're challenging some of our thoughts and some of the reasons that we are the way we are some of you are struggling with fear and insecurity and doubt and anxiety all of these symptoms of of the lack of being fathered and loved in these areas of our life that's what's being made available today because she's not going to spend her life going around just with the same it's not like her past is going to continue to dictate what it is that she's going to do with herself and she's not doing it because some [00:36:39] (74 seconds)

it's an encounter and she can't go back now like she'll never be the same and the parts of herself that she felt like she had to protect those things that are inside of you that you're not sure if you can trust anybody with maybe you can't trust a person with yet but I promise you our papa he is so kind he's so gentle he's not ashamed of you you don't have to use the same strategies to get by there's parts that he wants to heal in us and this affection that she's showing me I just I love it this is this is me as a little boy this is what I loved I had a white horse named sugar [00:40:54] (52 seconds)


And I used to be that guy, but I hated it because I loved animals, and I'm like, there's got to be a better way. And I had a friend, I trained a horse for him, and then the horse broke his daughter's arm. And so that might have been part of him bringing me a videotape on how to train horses. But it was a video. It was a video by a guy named John Lyons, and it was just like a one -hour video. It was on a VHS tape. Kids, you don't ask your mom what that is. And I watched it, and he had a round pen. And it was just very little instruction, but it was like, I got it. It just gives them some choices. You can run if you want. But when you don't want to run anymore, I've got something better for you. And that happened the same time that I got born again. [00:50:47] (62 seconds)

Like, all the stuff that people are like, no, something's not right. You're right. This is not normal. This is not natural. This is supernatural. And I don't know if there's people in here like me that say, like, I'm tired of just doing the natural things. Doing what man can do. I want to do the things that Jesus said I can do. And there's actually healing in the room. There's healing. There's supernatural things that make it to where there's stuff that I can do, but then there's stuff that I can't do. [00:52:46] (35 seconds)

And so, you might see yourself as a believer. You might see yourself as a Christian. Maybe not. Maybe this is all brand new to you. But we started this thing by holding hands as a family. And we're making some decisions individually. But... There's enough power over this room right now that something... Well, a lot of things are going to change right now. And so, if you don't know that you're... Well, if you haven't experienced being fathered by God, being mothered by God, this tenderness and this instruction and this empowerment, if that's new to you and you want more of that, [01:01:03] (45 seconds)


paradox almost where jesus says we've been filled with the fullness of god how do we remain hungry it's so cool like i've got the fullness of god dwelling inside of me yet i'm still hungry that can only happen in the kingdom [01:02:19] (14 seconds)