An Object of Mercy | Ammabel Rushaju

But growth can be present even when it is struggling. So do not give up when you see someone struggling, do not give up. When you are struggling, do not give up. Just keep your hope in God. External pressure can also suffocate the eternal promise, but it will not kill you. God's promise, what God has ordained will stand. It will stand. Keep hope alive. What we turn to in pain also determines what grows. Numbing may seem may ease temporary pain, but it cannot produce the lasting fruit. [00:08:43] (34 seconds)  #HopeInStruggle

At that point, every thought fell silent. And I pray that these thoughts that speak louder than God's word in us will fall silent so that we can hear. And then I whispered back, Jesus, is that you? Like, are you serious? And this is what this is literally how I was saying. Like, what would you even want with me? Like, are you crazy? Are you mad? Are you for real? What would you want with a wretch like me? There's so many good girls out there. I'd been told I was a bad girl. You know, I have tried before. I have failed. I've done this thing like a 101 times. I'm tired. I don't want to be a hypocrite. So [00:10:38] (40 seconds)  #UnexpectedCalling

By this time, I had learned that this communication is real because it is accurate and I cannot fight it. I cannot fight it. So I was like, okay, God, I'll humble myself down and I'll wait for your timing. I learned that in God's call, it may be uncomfortable but timing matters. I was still being shaped for his purpose. This that was just the beginning of the journey. And obedience is not only bold actions you know for God, sometimes it is quiet restraint. So I calmed down, I humbled myself, and the Lord had a lot to teach me. It's during this time that I learned that my storm going through that, it's after this time that I learned that my storm had been training for the ministry that I do today. [00:21:00] (46 seconds)  #StormForgedMinistry

Rejection uncovered my hunger for acceptance. I sought that be I I sought that belonging in wrong places. I searched in wrong places. I indulged in the wrong things to cover up this hunger. Rebellion was misplaced pain and and and woundedness. It was I was just trying to express myself but had no guidance, had nobody to stand by me. The altar calls revealed the call. The response to these altar calls was not madness. It was showing that the seed had not been had not died. It was there. The invisible one that was sown when I was a little girl, and the valley introduced me to resilience. [00:07:00] (43 seconds)  #SeedOfResilience

Matthew thirteen seven talks about the seed that fell among thorns and it grew, but as it grew, it got shocked by the cares of this world, the lusts of the flesh, the you know, there's so many things that discourage thing discouraging things that happen. The faith is there. The the the seed has taken root, but the the things that meet you up there along the way that that that choke you. So shame choked me, instability, social stigma entered my world, and it all began to choke me up. Like the seed among the thorns, my faith sprouted, but it was overwhelmed by worries about my family's situation and by turning to and by turning to worldly pleasures to numb that pain. [00:07:55] (48 seconds)  #FaithOverThorns

I'll share my foundation as a little girl, the storms that tested my life, and then talk about my life changing encounter with him and how everything that has happened to me has been part of god's divine plan for my life. The theme of my message today or testimony is God's purpose will stand. And this hinges on Ecclesiastes three fourteen that says, I know that everything that God does will endure forever. Nothing can be taken from it and nothing can be added to it. And God does this so that we may fear him, so that we may honor him. [00:00:50] (40 seconds)  #PurposeWillStand

this caused me to start seeking for love, acceptance, and belonging in the wrong places. And then by 15, I was very, very rebellious. And but even as a rebel, I still yielded at to every altar call, every message I had, and my friends could not understand this. They were like, you know, either be here or be there. But and then I didn't know where I wanted to be. All I know is that I wanted that more because the other one, sometimes I woke up crying in the morning hating what it was about. [00:05:11] (36 seconds)  #RebelYetReturning

what is it and where have you been this whole time? Did I have to first go through this? Did I have to? And we have those questions. Do I have to first go through this for you to show up? That was my question. And then I was I was thinking then he replied and said, return to me and I will raise you myself this time. And I really said like, I wish you luck. But in that but in that moment, I cried because I felt some relief. There was there was a lot of divine things happening there. I felt some relief like a lost child coming home and this moment sometimes makes me feel emotional. [00:11:18] (38 seconds)  #LostChildFound