Journeying Deeper: Embracing God's Love and Intimacy

Devotional

Sermon Summary

Sermon Clips


something did happen to me when I was a teenager and imperfect theology, obviously, but I heard the gospel, and something was rooted in me and now I didn't fall over and start chewing on the rug and I mean but some that's great if you did I'm just saying that when I say hey something happened to me I'm saying it wasn't like physical like I could feel it and you know I almost wish it was you you know in some ways cuz I just think that's that's amazing you know if you're physically healed or you're you know something is man I believe in those stories but for me something happened I didn't feel it physically emotionally but I know it happened [00:00:04]

and you know how I know because 40 years later I love him more than I did and I desire serving him even more I'm not bummed out about Ministry sure there's little things little hiccups here there but I'm like God I want to I want to do something on this Earth You know where you want to take me when you you're telling us pray God may be sending I'm like God here I am again where do you want me to go like like I just want to be used by you man same prayer I prayed when I was 16 and so now at 56 and and now I still love like I'm just going God when can I get away to where just you and me like for a long time like because I I I got to I got to have more of that [00:01:07]

I'm still praying God don't let me lose sight of the Holiness and the love every day and it's just been in increasing measure for 40 years so that's how I know something happened and got rooted in my soul and I thank God because I had a youth pastor who said hey get alone with the word of God get alone with God every day get alone with God he taught me that when I was 15 16 years old and I'm doing it now at 56 and I'm loving it more it's not gotten old it's just you understand him more and you're going God how did I miss that side of you this is ridiculous okay I thought I loved you before this is just out of control now I mean I I really love you [00:01:53]

and I was thinking God what did you impart to me through Pastor Stan whatever you did there thank you yes because I I've seen so many walk away so many just deny him so many of my friends that are no longer with me in this journey very very few who still are God thank you that I still you're my shepherd and I I don't really want anything else I don't care about other stuff just make sure I don't lose sight of your Holiness and your love for me every day and I'm good and I told God I go if you just keep that on the Forefront of my mind I know I can make it through anything it's just when I lose sight of who you are and your love for me [00:03:08]

I love the Apostle Paul I mean just things he writes I love and and I always gravitated towards Peter the Apostle Peter cuz I thought that guy is awesome like yeah yeah he started drowning in the water but he got out of the boat you know he took a couple steps so he's the only human outside of Jesus that got to walk on top of water at least he got to do it you know and he's screwed up and he's you know ready to kill people with the sword and everything you know but I I like that you know and uh I I just gravitate towards I'm so tired of people doing nothing he does something he tries he messes up blah blah blah blah I love that [00:03:54]

and I never really got into John just I'm just I'm just being honest I mean yeah it's it's and and I only saw this recently it's like oh I always thought it was weird that John would call himself the Beloved he goes this is or no worse when you know some scriptures say uh he's the one you know this is from the one whom Jesus loved if I'm one of the other disciples I'm like oh my gosh you arrogant you know right that's just so weird I would just go wait you're the one that he loved you're the Beloved and uh and and he says you know Peter was trying to figure out who the traitor was and he motioned to me so I laid my head on Jesus his chest [00:04:46]

and then later at the end of his his gospel he he writes this is from the one he loved the one who laid his head on Jesus's chest like that's the way he describes himself and so for many years I'm just like that's just weird and then he brags about how he outran Peter to the T it's just like this guy's arrogant I don't know what he really did you know in my mind then I'm just telling you those are my simple thoughts I go through this head I want to walk on water I want to cut someone's ear off you know and John oh he loves you you know cute you laid your head on his but I but God's just opening my eyes where I'm going [00:05:18]

wow I'm at the point now where I go I became fascinated with the thought of John laying his head on the chest of almighty God the judge so the one on the throne that we the angels are crying holy holy holy John's going I laid my head on his chest the one that Jimmy was describing from Revelation 5 on that Throne opening up John goes I I laid my head on his chest imagine the security of knowing the Holiness of God and then knowing he wants you because he loves you and and he goes he's actually going to like this watch that's awesome and I now I look at the scriptures where I used to want to be Elijah like calling down fire or you know just different awesome Miracles [00:06:25]

and now I go if there's one act from scripture that I wish I could do is to look at that holy God take the form of a man and then I am so secure in him I know he loves me and I could just lay my head on his chest [00:07:08]

Ask a question about this sermon