Finding Peace: Trusting God Through Anxiety and Depression

"I think, Lisa, I know I might get a lot of kickback, but what troubles me is people go get medicine. And does the medicine maybe put a Band-Aid over the problem? It might. The depression I suffered under in my early 40s, and even before that, was from an intimidating spirit, a spirit that tried to control me. I fought that for years, and until God showed me, John." [00:00:10]

"If you look at Proverbs 12, 25, it says, anxiety in the heart of a man causes depression, but a good word makes it glad. So anxiety. Think about anxiety. Is it a suggestion that God says, don't be anxious for nothing? Is that just a recommendation? Is God just saying, hey guys, I'm going to make a strong recommendation. Stay away from worry. Stay away from anxiety. It's really not a good thing." [00:02:14]

"It says be anxious for nothing then nothing yeah all right but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to god and here's the result if you don't worry here's the result and the peace of god which passes all understanding will keep your heart and mind through christ jesus now in the amplified bible it says it'll actually garrison about your heart and mind like like a garrison of soldiers yeah now i remember in my earlier years learning this experientially back in the day we had one car it was a if i remember a ford thunderbird we had the church van that i was driving pick up guest speakers to run errands you and i my salary was eighteen thousand dollars a year we basically once we paid our bills had about two hundred dollars a month leftover for groceries and that was it i think we had eighty dollars to our name and i remember coming home one day in dallas and it was so hot so i remember pulling into the parking lot we had one car and i'm driving the church van we had no money and i remember driving it i'll never forget as long as i live there was your ford granada and there was an explosion because the heat got so bad in dallas and the window was because it was a two-door was in like hundreds maybe even a thousand little pieces it was" [00:02:58]

"And I screamed out in the van because I was all alone. I was going to the Summit Hotel to pick up somebody. And I screamed out, Father, you said be anxious and worried about nothing. I don't have any money to fix this thing. It will be hundreds of dollars. We have $80 to our name. You told me to ask you, I'm asking you to fix this, send somebody that can fix this. And I take, and I remember I'm driving with one hand. I said, I'm putting all the care of this vehicle in this hand. And I said, I give it to you. And I said, if that car gets towed away by the apartment complex, it's not my problem anymore because I just gave the care to you." [00:05:56]

"But what I remember, Lisa, is the peace of God, like a blanket came all over me. And I thought, I've been anxious for the last four days about this. And I remember, I actually was like, okay, everything's great. And I went on my day. Next day, I think it was, you had a friend come over for lunch. I called my" [00:06:41]

"Now, I want to revert back to what we talked about last podcast. We talked about not taking your authority. And the depression I suffered under in my early 40s, and even before that, was from an intimidating spirit, a spirit that tried to control me. And I remember Elijah in the Bible. He wanted to die. Like he just had the greatest day of ministry the day before." [00:09:05]

"I fought that for years until God showed me, John, you're dealing with this on a natural level instead of on a spiritual level." [00:09:41]

"I know I've gone through times where I'm listening to all these news outlets or Instagram or something, and all the information that's being fed to me. I can't do anything about it. Well, except pray. I can pray. But I can't do anything about it. But it's usually the intake is weighing me down. And I think it's interesting in Luke 21, 34, Jesus said, take heed to yourselves, lest your hearts be weighed down. One of them, how does your hearts weigh down? Through the cares of this life. And so I think we almost have to learn how to release it to God, either through prayer or be careful to what we're listening to." [00:12:02]

"I just find people's time is spent so much more on social media today and on the news of the world than it is in the Word of God. And why is faith at an all-time low? How would Jesus really respond today? Think about it. He's looking at his guys, and they couldn't cast a double out of a man's son. And Jesus comes down and looks at him and says, how long do I have to put up with you? Oh, faithless and perverted generation, how long do I have to tolerate this? I mean, he looks at Peter constantly and goes, oh, you of little faith. Oh, you of no faith." [00:16:41]

"Therefore, humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God. So isn't it interesting, the mighty hand God, speaking of his power, that he may exalt you in due time. So I love that, due time. What's due time? I mean, you know. It's about Peter, though for now, for a little while, you've been grieved by various trials. A little while to God can be seven, eight years. I mean, let's think about it. I mean, a day with the Lord is a thousand years and a thousand years is a day, right? So one hour comes out to be 42 years." [00:21:14]

"15 minutes is seven or eight years. I mean, so due time, all right? He will exalt you in due time. We give up if it doesn't happen by tomorrow. We don't give up if it doesn't happen by the time we say amen in our prayer. But I think this is interesting. Humble yourself under the mighty hand of God that he may exalt you in due time. Casting, how do we humble ourself? Casting all our care upon him, for he cares for you." [00:21:44]

"If you walk in this, you'll walk in a peace level like you've never known before, and you'll come out of the depression that I fought for for years. And so I just, I had to say that, Lisa." [00:24:06]