Finding Balance: Love and Contemplation at Jesus' Feet

Mary was full of a love to Christ which could be very active and self-sacrificing I have read to you of her pouring the precious box of nard Upon Our Lord for his anointing she was therefore one who not only waited and listened but she served the Lord after her sought and fashion if she had been simply contemplative and nothing more we might perhaps have considered her somewhat of a one-sided character and while pointing to that which was good in her as an example we might have had to comment on her deficiencies but she did more than sit at the Master's feet beloved if we ever serve the Lord as Mary Did We Shall do well now since she was able bble thus to serve she becomes a safe example for us in this other matter of restful Faith the portion of her life occupied in sitting at her master's Feet May instruct and help us I feel I can safely hold her up to you as an example in all respects and the more so because of the particular incident just now before us where she received the Master's Express commendation he praised her also for bringing the box of ointment but on this occasion he praised her too saying that she had chosen the good part which shall not be taken from her he could not have more conspicuously set his seal of approval on her conduct than he did [00:11:16]

Consider it well for I am persuaded that this is the true preparation for the other that contemplation and rest at the savior's feet will give you strength which will enable you afterwards to anoint his feet according as your heart's love shall dictate on this occasion then we have only to do with Mary sitting at our savior's feet there shall be four heads which you will not forget First Love at leisure sitting down second love in loneliness sitting at jesus' feet third love listening she heard his words and fourthly love learning she heard his words to Most Blessed purpose all the while she chose the good part first then love at leisure this is a point which I want you especially to notice you that have families to feed and clothe know how all day long you are busy very busy perhaps the husband is away from early morning till the evening comes the children have gone to school and the wife is occupied in aund household things but now the evening meal is over and there is a warm fire burning in the hearth is it not one of the most Pleasant sites of English Interiors to see the family gathered around the fire to just sit still for a little while to talk and to indulge in those domestic loves which are the charm of that sweet English word home may an Englishman never cease to think of the word home as the most musical word that ever dropped from Mortal lips [00:14:12]

Now love is quiet and still and I was about to say careless outside it has to watch its words but inside it is playful it is at ease it disports itself Fearless of all adversaries it takes its rest the armor is put off and the soldier feels the day's battle is done he stands not on his God any longer he is amongst those that love him and he feels that he is free I do not know what life would be if there were not some of those sweet Leisure moments when love has nothing else to do except to love those intervals these oases in the desert of Life wherein to love is to be happy and to be loved is to be doubly blessed now Christian people ought to have such times let us put a decide our service for a while I am afraid that even those who are busy in the Master's work and are not occupied much with lower things yet Overlook the necessity for love to be at leisure now tonight at any rate you that work longest and toil most and have to think the hardest can ask the Lord to make this a leisure time between you and Jesus you are not called upon to help Martha to prepare the banquet just sit still now sit still and rest at jesus' feet and let nothing else occupy the next hour but sitting still and loving and being loved by him [00:21:59]

Can we not get rid of worldly cares we have had enough of them during the six days let us cast the whole burden of them Upon Our Lord let us roll them up and leave them all at the the throne of grace they will keep till tomorrow and there is no doubt whatever that they will plague us enough then unless we have faith enough to master them but now put them on the Shelf say I have nothing to do with you now any one of you you may just be quiet my soul has gone away from you up to the savior's bosom there to rest and to Delight herself in him and then let us try to banish all Church care also holy cares should not always trouble us as I came here just now I said to myself I will try tonight not to think about how I shall preach or how this part of the sermon May suit one class of my hearers or that part another I will just be like Lazarus was of whom it is written that Lazarus was one of them that sat at the table with him you know that the preacher to such a congregation as this May often find himself like Martha cumbered with much serving if he forgets that he is but a servant of the master and has only to do his bidding you may well excuse us but it must not be so tonight whether you are Deacon or elder or preacher or hearer you must have nothing to do tonight with anything outside of our blessed Lord and our own heart Hearts our love shall claim this time for her own rest no Martha even though you are getting ready to Feast Christ we will not hear the clatter of dishes or the preparation of the festival we must now sit there at his feet and look up and have no eyes except for him no ears except for him no heart except for him it shall be loves Leisure night tonight [00:29:20]

And in truth beloved we have plenty of reason for resting let us sit at jesus' feet because our Salvation is complete he said it is finished and he knew that he had wrought it all the ransom price is paid for you oh my soul not one drop has been withheld of the blood that is your purchase the robe of righteousness is woven from top to bottom there is not one thread for you to add it is written ye are complete in him and however frail we be yet we are perfect in Christ Jesus and in spite of all our sin we are accepted in the Beloved if it be so oh love have you not room for leisure is not this thought a Divine upon which you may stretch yourself and find that there is space enough for you to take your fullest ease your rest is not like the Peace of the ungodly of whom it is said the bed is shorter than that a man May stretch himself upon it here is perfect rest for you a couch long enough and Broad enough for all you need and if per chance you should remember oh my heart that you have sin yet to overcome and Corruption within you yet to combat bethink you this night that Christ has put away all your sin for he is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone that believeth and that he has overcome the world on your behalf and said to you be of good cheer you have to fight but your foe is a routed foe it is a broken headed dragon that you have to go to battle with and the Victory is sure for your savior has pledged himself to it you may well take your leisure for the past is blotted out and the future is secure you are a member of Christ's body and as such you cannot die you are a sheep of his pasture and as such he will never lose you you are a jewel of his crown and as such he will never take his eye or or his heart off from you surely then you may take your leisure [00:35:36]

Let us rest also because we have received so much from our Master be sure to remember our heart that would have Leisure for love that though you have many mercies to receive there are not as many to come as you have had already you have great things yet to learn but not such great things as you have been taught already he that has found Christ Jesus to be his savior has found more than he will ever find again even though he find a heaven since Even Heaven itself is in the loins of Christ and he that gets Jesus has got an eternity of bliss in him if God Gave You Christ all else is small compared with the gift you already have take your leisure then and rejoice in your lord himself and in his infinite Perfections as to the Lord's work we may well take Leisure for love because it is his work it will go on rightly enough it is his work the saving of those Souls it is well that we are so eager it were better if we were more eager but just now we may lay even our eagerness aside for it is not a ours to save it is his and he will do it he will soon give you to seea of the travail of his soul Christ will not die in vain election's decree shall not be frustrated and redemption's purpose shall not be turned aside therefore rest besides my heart what can you do after all you are so little and so altogether insignificant if you worry yourself into your grave what can you accomplish God did well enough before you were born and he will do well enough when you are gone home therefore fret not yourself [00:45:28]

I have sometimes heard of ministers that have been quite exhausted by the preparation of a single sermon for the Sunday I am told indeed that one sermon on a Sunday is as much as any man can possibly prepare it is such laborious work to elaborate a sermon and then I say to myself did my Lord and Master require his servants to preach such sermons as that is it not probable that they would do a great deal more good if they never tried to do any such fine things but just talked out of their hearts of the simplest truths of his blessed gospel I turn to the Old Testament and I find that he told his priests to wear white white linen but he also told them never to wear anything that caused sweat from which I gather that he did not want his priests in the temple to be puffing and blowing and sweating and toiling like a set of slaves he meant that his service although they threw their strength into it should never be wearisome to them he is not a Taskmaster like Pharaoh exacting his tail of bricks and then again a double T giving his servants no straw wherewith to make them no but he says take my yoke upon you and learn of me for I am meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest unto your souls for my yoke is easy and my burden is light therefore it seems to me that with all the work his people do and they ought to do it so as to pour their whole life on his head like a box of precious spite n yet he did not mean them to go up and down about his service stewing and worrying and killing their very lives out of them about this and that and the other they will do his service a great deal better if they will very often come and sit down at his feet and say now I have nothing to do but to love him nothing to do but to receive receive his love into my soul or if you will seek after such quiet communion you'll be sure to work with a holy might that shall consume you first take in the strength by having these blessed times of leisure at the savior's feet he that believeth shall not make haste he shall have such peace and restfulness such quiet and calm that he shall be in no hurry of fear or fright but he shall be like the great Eternal who with all that he does and he works hitherto and guides the whole universe which is full of stupendous wonders yet never breaks the Eternal leisure in which his Supreme mind forever dwells well if we cannot keep up such Leisure as that at least let us have it tonight I invite you persuade you and entreat you beloved Marys and others like you to do nothing but just enjoy the Leisure of love and sit at jesus' feet [00:51:12]

The second thing is love in its loneliness love wants to spend her time with Christ she picks her place and her place is down at his feet she does not come to sit at the table with him like Lazarus but she sits down on the ground At His Feet observe that love in this case does not take the position of Honor she is not a busy housewife managing Affairs but a lonely worshipper who can only love some of us have to be managers for Christ managing this and managing that but perhaps love is most at home when she forgets that she has anything to manage she leaves it to manage itself or better still she trusts the Lord to manage it all and just subsides from a manager into a disciple from a worker into a penitent from a giver into a receiver from a somebody which Grace has made her to a nobody glad to be nothing content to be at his feet to let him be everything while self sinks and sinks away do not let me only talk about this beloved but let it be done love your lord now let your hearts remember him behold his Robes of love all crimsoned with his heart's blood you shall take your choice whether you look up to him on the cross or on the throne let it be as suits your mind best tonight but in any case say unto him Lord what am I and what is my father's house that you have loved me so sit near your Lord but sit at his feet let such words as these be upon your lips Lord I'm not worthy to be called by your grace I'm not worthy to be written in your book of life I am not worthy that you should waste a thought on me much less that you should shed your blood for me I I do remember what I was when you first dealt with me I was cold careless and hard towards you but very wanting and eager towards the world giving my heart away to a thousand lovers and seeking Comfort everywhere except in you and when you did come to me I did not receive you when you did knock at my door I did not open to you though your head was wet with Dew and your locks with the drops of the night and oh since through your grace I have admitted you and you and I have been joined together in bonds of blessed Union yet how ill have I treated you oh my Lord how little have I done for you how little have I loved you I could faint in your presence to think that if you did examine me and cross question me I could not not answer you one of a thousand questions you might ask me your book accuses me of negligence in reading it your throne of grace accuses me of slackness in prayer the Assemblies of your people accuse me that I have not been hearty in worshiping there is nothing either in Providence or in nature or in Grace but what might bring some accusation against me the world itself might blame me that my example so little rebukes it and my very family might charge me that I do not bless my household as I should that is right dear brother or sister sink go on sinking be little be less be less still be still less be least of all be nothing lift up your eyes from your lowly place to him who merits all your praise say to him but what are you beloved that you should have thought of me before the Earth was that you should take me to yourself to be yours and then for me should leave the royalties of Heaven for the poverties of Earth and should even go down to the Grave that you might lift me up and make me to sit with you at your right hand oh oh what wonders you have wrought on me and I'm not worthy of the least of your mercies and yet you have given me great and unspeakable blessings if you had only let me be a doorkeeper in your house I had been happy but you have set me among princes if you had given me the crumbs from your table as dogs are fed I'd been satisfied but you have put me among the children if you had said that I might just stand outside the gates of Heaven now and then on Gala days to hear your voice it would have been Bliss for me but now you have promised me that I shall be with you where you are to behold your glory and to be a partaker of it World Without End does not such thoughts as these make you sink I do not know how it is with you but the more I think of the Lord's mercies the more I grow downward I could weep to think that he should lavish so much on one that gives him no return at all for so it seems to my heart that it is with me what do you think of yourself what are your faith your love your liberality your prayers your Works dare you call them anything you imagine that the Lord is pleased with your past would he not rather say to you you have bought me no sweet cane with money neither hast thou filled me with the fat of thy sacrifices but thou Hast made me to serve with thy sins and wearied Me With Thine iniquities so we sit down again at his feet and from that place we would not wish to rise Love's Leisure shall be spent in Acts of humiliation we will bow at the feet that were pierced for our red Redemption [00:54:32]

But now in the third place here is love listening she is down there in the place of humility but she is where she can catch each word as it falls and she is there with that object she wishes to hear all that Christ has to say and she wishes to hear it close at hand she wants to hear the very tones in which he speaks and the accents with which he delivers each precept she loves to look up and see that eye which has such meaning in it and that blessed countenance which speaks as much as the lips themselves and so she sits there and she looks with her eyes toward him as a handmaid's eyes are to her mistress and then with her ears and her eyes she drinks in what he has to say now beloved I want you just to do that say in prayer Now Speak Lord for thy servant heareth and then with your ear open hear what he says by his word perhaps there is some text that has come home to your soul today hear it hear it well it would not be much use for anyone to try to preach a sermon in the center of the city in the middle of the day if you stood near St Paul's Cathedral with all that traffic going by and all that rumbling roaring and shouting why the big Bell itself might speak and you would hardly hear it but when it is night and all is still then you can hear the city clock strike and you might hear a man's voice even though it was not a very strong one if he went through the streets and delivered a message with which he had been entrusted well our blessed Lord often takes ad advantage of those quiet times when the man has a broken leg and cannot get to work but must be still in the hospital or when the woman is unable to get about the house to attend to her ordinary duties but is so helpless that she cannot do anything else but think then comes the Lord and he begins to bring to our remembrance what we have done in days past and to talk with us as he never has the opportunity of doing at any other time but it is far more blessed to find time ourselves so that the Lord will not need to afflict Us in order to get us quickly at his feet often times the Good Shepherd in caring for the Sheep maketh us lie down but he is glad when we come of our own accord that we may rest and listen to his word listen to what he is saying to you by Providence perhaps a dear child is sick at home or you have losses and crosses in business it may not seem to you as if these things come from your loving Lord but they are perhaps the pressure of his hand to draw you to his side that he may tell you his secret perhaps it has been Mercy that has come to you in another way you have been prospered you have been converted you have had much joy in your family well the Lord has a voice in all that he does to his people so listen tonight if you listen you will be obliged to say what shall I render to the Lord for all his benefits to me listen also to what the spirit says in your soul listen for it is not till you get your soul quiet that you can hear what the spirit of God is saying I have known such a clatter of worldliness or Pride or or some other noise in the soul of man that the still small voice of the Holy Spirit has been drowned to the serious detriment of the disciple now I hope you have really done with all your cares and left them outside the Tabernacle tonight that even the cares about your class in the Sunday school and about your preaching engagement tomorrow and everything else have been put aside and that now you are just sitting down down at jesus' feet and listening while you listen in that fashion in lowly Spirit At His Feet you are likely to hear him say some words to you which perhaps may change the whole tenor of your life I do not know what God the Lord will speak but he will speak peace to his people sometimes he speaks in such a way that a turbid life has become clear a life of perplexity has become decided and distinctly happy and a life of weakness has become a career of strength and a life that seemed wasted for a while has suddenly sprung up into eminent usefulness keep your ear open Mary keep your ear open brother and you will hear what Jesus Christ has to say but now let me say while you are sitting and listening you will do well to listen as much much to him as to what he has to say for Christ himself is the word and his whole life is a voice oh sit down sit down and listen I wish I had not to talk tonight and could sit down and do it for myself and just look up at him God overall blessed forever and yet brother to my soul a partaker of flesh and blood this very fact that he is Incarnate speaks to me that God is in human flesh speaks Comfort to my soul such as no words could ever convey God in my nature God become my brother my helper my head my all could not my soul leap out of the Body for Joy at the Incarnation if there were nothing else but that revealed to us now let me look up again and see my Lord with his wounds as Mary did not see him but as we now may with hands and feet pierced with scarred side and marred Visage tokens of the ransom pricee paid in his pangs and griefs and death is it not wonderful to see your sin forever blotted out and blotted out so fully and blotted out by such means as this why if there were not an audible word those wounds are mouths which speak his love the most eloquent mouths that ever spoke are the wounds of Christ listen listen every drop of blood says peace every wound says pardon life eternal life and now see your beloved once again he is risen from the dead and and his wounds bleed no more yeah he has gone to glory and he sits at the right hand of God even of the father it is well for you dear brother or sister that you cannot literally sit at his feet in that guise for if you could only see him as he is I know what would happen to you even that which happened to John when he saw him with his head and his hair white like wool as white as snow and his eyes as a flame of fire and his feet as if they burned in a furnace you would swoo away John says when I saw him I fell at his feet as dead you cannot sit at those feet of Glory till you have left this Mortal clay or until it has been made like unto his glorious body but you may in faith do so and what will his glory say to you it will say this is what you shall receive this is what you shall share share this is what you shall see forever and ever he will say to you even to you who mourn your insignificance and in loneliness sit at his feet beloved you shall partake of the glory which the father gave me even that which I had with him before the world was soon when a few more moons have waxed and waned soon you shall be with me where I am oh what Bliss is this never mind Martha's frowns forget her for a moment and keep on sitting at jesus' feet she may come in and Grumble and say that something is neglected tell her she should not neglect it then but now your business is not with plates or pots but to do as your master has permitted you to do namely to sit at his feet and listen to him [01:13:47]

So I close by saying in the fourth place that here is love learning while she listened she was being taught because she sat at jesus' feet with her heart all warm sitting in the posture of loneliness she was as few could hear them hearing words so as to spy out their secret meaning you know the difference between a man's voice at a distance saying something and his being very near you you you know how much the face can say the eyes can say and the lips can say and there is many a deaf man that has heard another speak though he has never heard a sound he has known the meaning by the very motion of the lips and the gleams of the countenance ah and if you get into such near fellowship with Christ as to sit at his feet you will get his meaning when the letter kills others you will see the secret meaning that is hidden within and you will rejoice she got at his meaning and then she was hearing the word so as to drink in the meaning they sit down at thy feet says the old scripture everyone shall receive of thy words beloved that is a great promise to receive of his words some people hear the words but do not receive them but there sat Mary where as the words fell they dropped upon her as snowflakes drop into the sea and are absorbed so each word of Jesus dropped into her soul and became part and parcel of her nature they fired and filled her very being what she leared she remembered we see love learning what she will treasure up Mary never forgot what she heard that day it remained with her forever it seasoned her whole life the words of her master were with her all the days she was watching all the days she was waiting she was waiting after they had been spoken they kept her watching and waiting till at last Love's instinct told her that the time was come and then she went upstairs where she had put away the choice ointment for which she had spent her money she had laid it up and kept it till the time should come and just before the savior's death and burial she fetched it down the gift which she had hoarded up for him and she poured it out in adoration as she sat at his feet she resolved to love him more and more love was learning to love better as she had listened and leared the learning had crystallized itself into resolves to be among women the most devoted to him perhaps little by little she had laid by this great price which she had paid for the spikenard be it as it may it was dear to her and she brought it down when the time was come and put it all on him with a joyous liberality and love well now I want you to learn of Jesus after that fashion and by and by when the time comes you too may do some deed for Christ that shall fill the house in which you dwell with sweet perfume ye shall fill the Earth with it so that if man senses it not yet God himself shall be delighted with the fragrance you pour out of love upon his son [01:42:03]