In our journey with God, we often find that our understanding and relationship with Him evolve as we grow and face different seasons of life. From the innocence of childhood, where the world and God seem vast and full of wonder, to the complexities of adulthood, where we grapple with doubt, suffering, and the search for truth, our faith is continually shaped and reshaped.
As a child, I was baptized and raised in a church that was a second home to me, filled with mystery and a sense of the divine. This environment fostered a childlike faith in me, a faith that was simple, trusting, and unburdened by the need to understand everything. This faith was characterized by an awe of God's greatness and a confidence in His goodness.
However, as I grew older, I encountered challenges that tested this faith. In middle school, my interest in science and exposure to skepticism on the internet led to doubts about God's existence and the truth of the Bible. It was during this time that God, in His providence, led my youth director and a mentor to start a Bible study with me. Through reading the Bible in its entirety, God spoke to me, reaffirming His faithfulness and the truth of His word. This experience transformed my understanding of God from a distant, powerful being to a personal Father who desired a relationship with me.
In high school and college, my faith flourished as I delved into theology and Christian community. Yet, this period of spiritual high was followed by a sudden and profound low when I returned to college after working at a summer camp. I experienced a deep depression, feeling numb and disconnected from God, friends, and even life itself.
It was in this darkness that I encountered Jesus in a new and profound way. A song reminded me that Jesus is not distant but has entered into our suffering. He is a Savior who is close, who understands our pain because He too experienced betrayal, abandonment, and death. This realization that Jesus was fully human and shared in our suffering brought me comfort and hope. It lifted me out of my despair and renewed my life, just as King David spoke of being restored to life from the depths.
Now, as I continue to walk with God, I draw strength from the promise that Jesus is near to the brokenhearted. My story is one of grace, a testament to God's faithfulness through every season of life. And it is this story of grace that I am privileged to share with others, especially the youth in our church, as I serve in ministry.
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