Embracing Trust: A Journey Beyond Belief in God

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But what if all these things are true about how God loves us? Let me reread these card sentiments. And think about it as if God was saying this. My heart is with you wherever you are. Loving you is the first and last thing I think about every day. No matter how much I say I love you, I will always love you more. I want to tell you I love you so much, sometimes it hurts. I fell in love with you even before we met. But I just want to say you make me happy every day. I am never not thinking of you. That's amazing love.

Sometimes trusting God is exhausting. Believing in God is relatively easy. A recent Gallup poll discovered that two-thirds of the population of the entire world believe in God. Believing is knowing some facts, having some evidence, and then deciding it's true, so you're going to believe it. Believing is usually intellectual. I believe that my car would do what the manual said it would do. I got the information, and I said, yeah, okay, this can do that. But trust my—let go of my control, and trust the cameras, and trust the cruise control, and trust the lane-changing thing? That was much harder. Because trust is relational. Trust means we have to relinquish control and depend on something or someone else. Trust always involves a relationship, and trust always involves letting go. Trusting God is relational. It's putting confidence in God's character, in his care, in his guidance. Well, that's terrifying. [00:29:43]

Saying you don't trust God isn't unbelief. It isn't rebellion. It's honest wrestling with God. It's being honest about feeling betrayed by God when he seems distant or inconsistent or unfair. [00:34:06]

We all know the pain of trusting someone and then discovering they aren't completely trustworthy. Usually, this betrayal comes first from our parents. Now hang with me. I'm not going to blame anyone. Come on. I'm a parent. But babies come into this world totally dependent. Do you agree? They think we are in control, loving and nurturing and are here to cater to their every need. And we do our best for them. But then, one day, they discover we're human. We're too slow to feed them. We accidentally get soap in their eyes in the bath. We say no to something they want. We leave them with a babysitter. We may yell in anger. We may get sick. Maybe one parent moves out. As parents, our betrayal of trust is usually so unintentional. But as children, we have all been hurt because we think our parents are perfect. [00:34:44]

As we grow older, trusting, we grow beyond trusting just our parents. We trust people at school. We trust our friends. We trust people at work. We trust people we volunteer with. We trust people at church. And we get disappointed. We get hurt. And each time trust is broken, we stiffen up. We close in. We step back just a little bit. So one reason trusting God is hard is because we've been betrayed by people. [00:37:07]

Another reason trusting God might be hard is when we box God in to being a human being. We personify him. We expect him to act like a person. We want to understand God. That is good. We want to give him human qualities so that we can know him better. But sometimes that's not good because he doesn't act like a human being. He created human beings. He's not a human being. And when we think he will do what we think he should, we make him so small. [00:37:55]

We personify God and think he only has eight colors. Do you know there's over 400 colors of crayons now? There's over 400 colors of God. In fact, who he is is absolutely limitless. [00:39:26]

If I don't know God very well, I'll mix him up with people who haven't been trustworthy. So let's talk about who God is. First of all, God is love. John says in chapter 4, verse 16, it says, God is love. So there it is. God is love. He can't be anything else but love. It's against his nature. It is his character. Romans 5, 8 says, but God demonstrates his love for us in this. While we were still sinners, before we did anything for God, Christ died for us. All his actions are based on love. So the overarching umbrella for God is love. [00:40:17]

Do you know God put a deep desire in your heart to love and be loved? It's as much a part of us as breathing. We can't escape our need for love unless we get lobotomized. And we all know that love can be painful as well as amazingly wonderful. We all need human love. Yet love comes at great cost sometimes because we love other human beings who are fallible just like us. [00:41:26]

I'm wondering if we can let go of personifying God and let him be who he really is. Only loving. [00:44:51]

Well, next, God's a bunch of big words. Omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent, omnibenevolent. That's what God is. There, do you get it? Make sense? Well, it didn't for me. I don't know what those words mean. I had to break them down. I had to dumb them down so that I can understand it more clearly. First of all, omni. Omni means all. Like an omnivore is an animal that eats all the things. Or an omnibus is a bus that carries all the people. Well, God is all of the awesome alls. [00:45:05]

Omniscient simply means he is all-knowing, which is wisdom. And he sees the past, the present, the future. Omnipresent means he's everywhere. He's everywhere at the same time. He's not limited to time and space. Omnipotent, he's all-powerful, almighty. He has unlimited power and authority. He has no limitations except that he's loving. Omnibenevolent, he's all-good. He's perfectly good. So, God is love. And God is all the awesome alls. [00:45:55]

This is God's heart for you. Some of you know I had a rough childhood. In my late teens, I learned about God. I trusted him. I believed in him. I gave him my future. I trusted him with my marriage. I trusted him with my kids. And life was good. But then my past started to affect the present. And life got really hard. So I didn't know if I wanted to continue to live. I believed God existed. I did. I did. but it seemed like he didn't care enough to help me. I lost trust in God. [00:47:21]

I struggled with thinking God gave me a hard life just so I would have this amazing story so he could look good. I didn't trust his love for me. I was afraid he would get me soft toward him and then pull the rug out from under me. I didn't trust he was all good. I never knew anybody who was powerful who was also good. So instead of trusting God with my life, I grabbed on to the little control I felt that I had and I decided I would be in charge of the decision whether I live or die. [00:48:10]

But his struggle with me trusting him didn't change his love and care for me. Because he is all-knowing, he knew I put attributes on him that really belonged to people who hurt me or betrayed me or who disappointed me. He wasn't threatened or angry at me because I had a hard time trusting him. [00:48:56]

So in spite of my struggles to trust God, he found a way to stay in relationship with me and helped me connect to him through the Holy Spirit. And then God brought godly people into my life who helped me see the lies I was believing. They showed me who God really was. They showed me that God was really all the alls. They became the face of God the Father. They proved that there were trustworthy men in the world. They became the face of Jesus. [00:50:11]

I want you to know something. Listen, this has been a 40-year journey for me. Trusting God can take a lifetime. Trusting God in some areas and struggling in other areas is a long road. So be encouraged. Struggling to trust God can take your entire life. You'll find you trust him a lot and then something happens and you'll want to grab control because it's just too scary to let go and trust God and trust that he is who he says he is. [00:50:59]

So I have a pretty good idea when I'm not trusting God. I get stiff. I get hard. I get... unbending. And I have a pretty good idea when I'm trying to trust God. Instead of being stiff and unbending, I lean. I lean into letting go. I open my fists. I relax. I soften. I tilt my head towards God and let its weight fall on his shoulder. I trust he won't drop me, at least in that one area. Only then, when I lean, can I breathe deep enough to remember God is all-loving, all-knowing, all-good, all-everywhere, all-powerful. [00:51:42]

Is it possible that your lack of trust is from a misconception of who he really is? Has someone untrustworthy in your life that you have caused suffering and pain, and now you're afraid to trust God? Now you're afraid to take a risk and trust again? Admitting we don't trust God is not a rejection of God, but it is a human cry that God can hold. [00:53:01]

Do you know God understands that? He's okay with your struggling. God's a big boy. He can handle that. God's a big boy. He understands you. He knows trust is hard. [00:53:54]

Can you imagine letting go of what you can't trust him for? Can you imagine leaning into him, maybe tilting your head to the side and letting it drop on his shoulder? It doesn't have to be now, not until you're ready. But just know when you're ready to take that risk and let go of what you need to control. He'll be right there to hold you as you lean on him. [00:54:16]

Now, as proof of this incredible love love that God has for us, he sent Jesus. He wants us to connect with him and he wants to connect with us so much that he sent his own only son, to give his life to cover for our sin and to repair the separation that sin has caused. Jesus died because of love. [00:55:31]

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